I’m sitting in my office, thinking how long it’s been since I even thought about blogging… about 8 months probably.

My life has been a whirlwind. It’s been turned completely upside down, and nothing is the same as it used to be. Everything is different and wonderful and… really hard sometimes.

I really enjoyed my pregnancy. Like, I wasn’t entirely sure I wanted to give birth just yet – I just wanted to stay pregnant for awhile longer! I won’t relay my entire birth story here; I’ll just say it was crazy, but so amazing, and a huge blessing. And immediately after that wild ride, we entered into newborn life.

Man, I knew that newborn life was going to be hard. I knew that nursing was going to be hard. But what I didn’t know was that, even six months in, it would still be really hard. Sometimes I felt like I was still nurturing a newborn, even at four and five months.

If I’m honest, I feel like I am just now – at seven months postpartum – coming out of a fog. I’m starting to remember that I am someone else besides Madeline’s mother. I’m also Jennifer Brown, who loves drinking tea on a quiet winter evening, watching period dramas, blogging and getting my nails done.

I love being a mom. And I love being a stay-at-home mom (well, a work-at-home mom, actually)! But it’s been a huge adjustment, and nothing about it has been smooth. But God has been so faithful. He was faithful in pregnancy, he was faithful in that 37th hour of labor when I was inwardly asking him to take me to glory (ha – you think I’m kidding), he was faithful when breastfeeding just sucked, and he was faithful through six months of not sleeping. And he will continue to be faithful, even on the days when I question my sanity.

Becoming a mother has been the biggest challenge of my life, but I wouldn’t trade it for a thing.

And now that I’m waking back up and emerging into the world once again, you’ll be hearing from me much more often. It’s been too long. Talk to you soon, friends.